so....

everything is going along about as well as we expected.  there are strange things happening in our relationship, distances growing and such, but so far, we are both handling them pretty well.  there has been an unusually large amount of external stresses lately (for about two weeks) that we have had to deal with.  however, nothing insurmountable has cropped up, so it is just a matter of endurance for us now.  the kids are astounding as usual.  jewel talked more during our last trip to the grocery store than i have ever heard from her in any other day.  she started talking to me when i was lifting her out of her seat and didn't stop until we were back at home.  i think that she only stopped then because her brothers interrupted her.  she described everything we passed and asked a million questions (both slight exaggerations).  i couldn't stop laughing at her.  trevor insists on running part of any run that he is a party to.  i try to run when trent is home so that i can finish, and sometimes just give in and run again later.  the best part is that i am getting back into shape faster, because of the kids.  even taylor has been participating by some running, some elliptical training, and especially push ups and sit ups with me.  he has gotten me to do them every night, which is appreciated.   trent is constantly bragging because he burns so many more calories on the elliptical than i do running, but when i get to do longer runs he doesn't beat me by much.  i am trying a program that will have me running a 5K in 12 weeks, but i am already ahead of the program, so... we'll see, maybe i will run farther.  i doubt it, i will have to find something that involves more strenuous strength training.  i am trying to get a stronger kick and punch now, and i have never tried to build strength in that way before, so i am not sure how i will proceed.  but, i know i will complete that program at the very least.  hopefully, i will be nearer my goal weight by the time i get there.  oh, and school is not going super duper, but it is still going good.  i am afraid that i may not be able to get an A in my math class.  i know i know how to do all of the math, but this teacher gives some tricky tests and (for a few reasons) i have not gotten my brain in line with that yet.  i am getting there, and we are starting the trig. stuff soon, maybe if i can get A's on all the tests and if i did better than i think i did on the last test,... i think it would, at this point, just be healthier if i force myself to let it go and convince myself that a b will be enough.  i mean, i can still get a's in my other classes, if i just relax about it.  deep breath, let it out slow, "a b will be just fine".  i don't think i will ever accept that!  anyway, everything is groovy and getting better.