I see it all so clearly now,

So interesting, the number of things you don't notice until you are free of them.  My happiness is not for sale.  Nice try.

fair

I am excited about the future.  That is all.

solution

I miss you and I don't even know what that means.  Time.

Although so much has already changed and I knew it was coming.  The final day of this life is tomorrow.  I will only be taking small parts of the past into the new life that begins tomorrow evening.  I don't know how I feel about it, but I know how I plan to handle it. 

so much effing pain.  no way out except through.  been here before but dragging more baggage this time.  people forget who you have been, who you have been for them, what you have been through, how strong you are already being.  sometimes they just don't know.  sometimes it seems like the people closest to you are discounting the effect that living has had on you. i am exhausted and my body aching from the strain.   being a burden is not my style, this has got to be changed.  i have got to change it. :/

stolen season

going back to memories too soon, never becoming memories, who knows

Happy Birthdays

Ethan's birthday was the sixth, mine just happened and Taylor's too. Yippee! We have had a great past week. Some things are up in the air, some things are being ignored, and some things are being pillaged for pleasure. Business as usual for the pirate ship, laughing and honesty, jokes and learning. Good times and moving forward and finding happiness. :)

happiness

so many words, so much meaning, still not enough.

your "i'm sorry" came a day too late. i'm sorry.