my phat little blog

so much effing pain.  no way out except through.  been here before but dragging more baggage this time.  people forget who you have been, who you have been for them, what you have been through, how strong you are already being.  sometimes they just don't know.  sometimes it seems like the people closest to you are discounting the effect that living has had on you. i am exhausted and my body aching from the strain.   being a burden is not my style, this has got to be changed.  i have got to change it. :/